everything is illuminated

I have reflected many times upon our rigid search:
It has shown me that everything is illuminated in the light of the past. It is always along the side side of side of us, on the inside looking out, like you say: inside out
Jonfen, in this way I will always be along the side of your life and you will always be along the side of mine. Our families will be with us and our families families, your grandfather and perhaps in some way my grandfather aswell.
It is possible I will never know why grandfather did this to himself. Perhaps he wished to bury his life alond the side of his past. But I must tell you Jonfen, in this moment he seemed as if for the first time in his life content to be where he was.
Jonfen, I am sending you this because we have shared something to exist for...and ofcourse in case anyone comes searching.

Alexander Perchov